Resolution of problems due to spiritual practice
Before I started chanting*, I was in total chaos. My father died a year before,
our country was bombed (as well as my native village), my sister was undergoing
an ugly divorce, my modelling career was at a crossroad, and as a result, I gained
some weight due to stress. I was lazy, sleepy, and nervous, couldn't sleep at
nights without the light on, and had a terrible fear of loneliness and death.
I used to spend enormous amounts of money on phone calls to my boyfriend and
many other people, as I could never stay alone, even for two minutes. It was
chaos in the mind and the body.
The first night I started chanting, I felt I had returned to God. (When I
was a child I was a believer.) All of a sudden, my entire life changed! It was
a pleasure to be around other seekers. With them I felt safe. I no longer felt
the need to call my friends for emotional support. My fear of death disappeared
as now I feel Jesus is with me. I started dieting and regained the will to work
again. I stopped having negative dreams about my father and had less of a problem
being left alone now. At my job, I got many assignments, and I noticed that people
started behaving better towards me, and thus making me respond better towards
them. I felt and looked better physically. When I saw my face in the mirror in
the morning, I didn’t hate myself. I slowly emerged as the new (or old)
me, with a renewed love for all, and above all with love for our LORD! |
